Usagi’s Neighborhood

.....I didnt sleep very well, ive been off for a fortnight and my body clock always changes.  I start going bed much later and getting up later.  Today was my first day back to work and so I went to bed but I wasnt tired, I woke about 2ish and lay for a good hour or so wide awake in bed.  I contemplated getting up, I should have really instead of tossing in bed.  And to top off my first day back they have landed a new member of staff on me, my head really wasnt in a state to be dealing wiht newbies at work I could barely remember my own job let alone train somebody else.

And so Im so very tired, and im getting nervy as my next OU course which is a level 2 course starts in a month.  Im currently trying to get through a set book about the european reformation and its like wading through treakle, I dont know how im going ot cope with a level 2 course.  I think im going to have to give up Television completely, im deadly serious I think the TV will have to stop.

M.I.A.  -  Jimmy

Aneela - Chori Chori

.....that wasnt predicted at all, we were supposed to have a light snow shower possibly but we have a huge snow storm thats come on very quickly and the place is white over already.

wishing everyone a happy year!!!

<3

What's your New Year's resolution for 2010?

Get back onto my Paul McKenna lost weight system

Use my kettlebells again.  Already lost 3 lbs in a few days.

Stop worrying about what others think about me and what I am and am not doing.

Live in the Now

Decide whether to join the SNU officially.

Get my tattoo

Get out more and make new friends

Practice my mandolin.

Drinking last night made me more depressed and put me in a bad mood.

I took ecstasy tonight and watched the fireworks at the space needle with Shu and friends. It is so strange to be out. Shu takes care of me though.

I have been staying with him. I do not want to say that he helps me, because I feel like nothing can, but being with him is better than being alone, I guess, I do not want to be alone. Thinking is making me crazy.

I bought some more ecstasy pills. Just in case I want them. I should stop though.

Swallow 01/01/10 04:14

I feel myself being swept up,

Weak,

I am carried against my will,

a wisp blown by the airs of lament,

falling down the stairs,

no progression,

Speak,

I scream,

into the floor,

sinking into harsh waters,

drifting farther than ever before

from the shore of hope,

Leak,

the ink of a heart

soaked in the poisonous sorrow.

Tomorrow,

I'm still caught in this world.

Tomorrow.

How will you be ringing in the New Year?

Like a complete saddo.... its 8.43pm and im sitting in my pjamas with a bottle of cheap wine and my pet cat and omg I almost actually for about 5 mins sat here contemplated signing up for a dating website :-(

Back in Seattle.

I didn't want to wait for my return flight on Friday, so I took the bus back last night.

I'm off to get wasted.

What's your best advice on how to deal with the post-holiday blues?

Sleep it away

wonderful christmas eve dinner with family and friends!

awesome way to end off the year 2009!

takoyaki maker

Vancouver 2009 Olympics Mitts!

Hello Kitty 2010 Calendar

a cute mug

deLux raccoon toque and mitts!